Ok here is some background just to help you understand where my head is at these last few weeks.

Daffodil day, Fathers day, my birthday, wedding anniversaries, etc etc etc!!!!!!!

It pisses me off how one-minute things are fine and dandy and the next you're on your arse with no idea how you got there or how to get up!
A little over 4 years ago Mum, Dad and my Mother in law all passed away in the space of 6 months. (The fact I was a Mummy's boy doesn't make it any easier) So there are certain times when things are going to get a bit sad and depressing. I'm pretty good at not dwelling on it but when you're in a week full of reminders it becomes extremely difficult to face..

GSW is a hugely positive thing that was born from a hugely negative time. Sometimes I get to the mat and it blows me away to see so many people who are as hooked as I am. Sunday is a classic example. 4pm was the time I chose to train so I could get home then go to Mum and Dads for Sunday roast.. The Sunday dinner has gone but the class time has stayed, and it's the biggest class we have.

You have no idea how strange it is to have a class full of people at a time that has a personal significance to me. So usually I'm not joking when I ask what the Hell you’re all doing there!!!

So Monday sucked, and as a result class sucked and I guess this is my way of letting you know why and hoping you'll understand? If I confused or alienated anyone, sorry, not personal I can assure you. Thanks for taking the time to read this and feel sorry for me. Now get back to your own life!!!

Oh and tell your parents how you feel about them, as they are not gonna be there forever!!!!!!!!!